BANANA MYLK: The Body Image Pledge

Hello!

I was inspired to write this after watching Jenny Mustard's video, The Body Image Pledge. This is a pretty personal post, but I don't want to censor myself on this blog and besides, maybe somebody can relate. Let's talk about body image!

I have always had a complicated relationship with my body which, in retrospect, began very early in life. My body has always been a source of shame and embarrassment. As a child, I feared close-fitting clothing and was insistent on wearing a big padded coat at all times, even indoors. Apologies to my Mum; it drove her crazy. As soon as I discovered the link between food and body shape, my childhood became punctuated by secret diets, which were sadly also common playground chat. But the diets were always short lived and besides, I was such a foodie; my appetite was always marveled at (and still is, haha).

My habit of wearing multiple layers in the scorching summer was passed off as me being a "cold person", and any talks about puberty or periods in school made me sick with dread. I was afraid of change, and I wanted to maintain my skinny child-like body forever. I actually remember telling my friends "but I don't want boobs" (nineteen year old me wholeheartedly retracts that).

Such was my fear, that I refused to discuss any relating matters with those around me. And of course, the inevitable happened. Puberty hit me like a train. My face filled out, my hips widened, my legs thickened. I hated everything about this, and felt awkward, self conscious and exposed most of the time. I wanted to be smaller, less noticeable, more discreet. I regret this now.

Body shaming is really commonplace in today's society. On one side of the spectrum, overweight people are shamed and stamped with derogatory labels. On another side, we can become so concerned with eliminating fat shaming, that naturally thin girls are no longer considered "real women". These are only a couple of examples, and this is so wrong. The media breeds self-criticism, so that we can no longer win; we are always too fat, too thin, too masculine, too bulky. Too curvy, not curvy enough. Discussions about important things (art, literature, politics and so on) are being replaced with gossip about which celebrity has or has not succumbed to plastic surgery. Which fad diet to follow, which attributes make us most attractive to men.

Fast forwards to now, and I'm a young woman. It feels strange to say that, but the reality is I'm most likely done growing. I am nothing like I used to be. I still struggle with my body image, and I'm sure that body dysmorphia distorts my view so that what I see in the mirror is innacurate. But by the day, I am more aware of my own strengths and quirks, none of which relate to my physical appearance. My goal is a strong and healthy body, and one which will allow me to go wherever my mind takes me in the future. Whether this body be curvy and full, or slim and athletic, is of no relevance. I no longer aspire to a certain physique, but a new way of seeing. I will engage in healthy habits and look after myself, with the trust that a natural and healthy body will follow.

Now onto Jenny's pledge, which sums this up so perfectly.